Blindsided

A week ago today I began a 7 day detox fast that was required before I began a 90 day cleansing program called Eat and Be Well. The plan is designed to detox your body, get rid of cravings for sugar and caffeine, and learn how to eat foods in their natural form, the way God intended. For 7 days I was to drink veggie juice and water for breakfast, lunch, and 2 "snacks," and then for dinner eat only brown rice and steamed veggies.  I woke up last Sunday morning so excited to begin this new journey. I used my new juicer I got for Christmas and juiced carrots and tomatoes and drank it for breakfast. Surprisingly it was pretty good.  It didn't take long for my excitement to end. Before I even had a chance to drink my lunch I got verbally attacked by someone who not only criticized me for doing the cleanse, but also did not understand or have a clue how it worked.  I truly believe Satan will use any means necessary to bring you down, even those you consider close to you.  Not only did this person deeply hurt me I was completely blindsided by this "attack." I was put in a position to defend not only myself, but the cleanse as well. I was in a bit of shock over it and spent most of the day crying and trying to figure out what had just happened. With the cleanse you really can't skip meals even if they are liquid only, and well with all the crying I did I just didn't have an appetite. Day 1-epic fail.  

Anyone who knows me knows how strong willed I am. I decided to get through the week and the weekend and I am going to start again first thing tomorrow morning.  It's hard to do something God-willed when you are ridden with anger, bitterness, and unforgiveness. Those who I may have ran into this past week, if I seemed cranky, moody, or just not myself... now you know why...and I was certainly not in the mood for any bull.


 So here I go again, tomorrow is Day 1! 
I dare anyone to try and stop me this time. 
Failing twice is not an option. :)

New Year...New Me...New Life!

What a year 2011 has been! Even though I'm not yet to my goal weight I must say this year has been a huge success for me. To date I've lost 69 lbs and over 40 inches. (I haven't measured in 2-3 months so I will update with that later. :))  For those who have been following my weight loss you know there has been many ups and downs, frustrations with plateauing, and my ever changing goals. lol I've also learned a few things about myself along the way. I've learned that I can deal with stress by going for a run instead of binging on chocolate. I've learned that I CAN run! lol I've learned that it's OK to not deprive myself and still lose weight. Moderation is so important. I used to think you had to completely go off the foods you love in order to lose weight. I now realize that is why I failed each and every time I tried to lose weight in the past. It's a LIFESTYLE CHANGE, not a DIET.  I could go on all day. lol


Losing weight also healed me.  For 2 years straight I was having trouble with my feet, more specifically my heels. They hurt ALL THE TIME! That is not even an exaggeration. As soon as my feet would hit the floor in the morning I would limp most of the day. I had never in my life experienced anything like it, not even with any of my pregnancies. Dr. Google explained that it was most likely plantar fasciitis and once of the causes is being overweight. I knew I was overweight, but I honestly didn't believe I was overweight enough for that to be the cause. But I guess when you are only 5 foot tall your feet can't take much weight bearing down on them. I was about a month into losing weight when the pain suddenly went away and has never returned. PTL!


Ok on to some news. Back in Oct my mom told me about a company called "It Works." I had never heard of it and like most people was skeptical about it.  I then attended a party she had at her house to learn more about it. It's a christian company that sells all natural supplements, body wraps, and skin care products. When they say all natural, they really mean it. Research is done to make sure that what goes into the supplements is only what our bodies need. Nothing extra is added that isn't beneficial. They offer vitamins, muscle and joints supplements, anti-stress supplements, even all natural fat fighters and greens. The body wraps are not the sweat to death body wraps you get from your typical spas. These body wraps releases the toxins in your body. You do not sweat at all. It tightens, tones, firms, minimizes cellulite, and even improves skin texture. They also continue to detox and help you lose inches over 72 hours. They really do work and I am proof! Last night (Dec 29) I got wrapped for the first time. I wrapped my stomach and left it on for about an hour. I lost 2 1/4 inches off my stomach in just that one hour! Yep I'm sold! lol Earlier this month I decided to become a distributor.  While weight loss is a big part of it, it's also about overall health.  If you are interested in learning more please visit my website: Fit 2 Inspire

What a Difference a Year Makes.

Prepare to be shocked.  I mean really shocked.  Let me first say that I debated all day whether or not to share this. It's still so very embarrassing that I allowed myself to get to that point.  Last Christmas I didn't allow many pictures of me to be taken...and you will clearly see why.  In fact I had to email my cousins to see if they had any pics of me from last year because I had none. Literally none. Poor Bryan looked like a single dad with 3 kids in all my pics. How sad is that?! I was so mortified when I got the email today I cried for almost 30 minutes. I didn't even recognize who that was in the picture. The girl from last year was broken and defeated.  The girl from last year had allowed every stress, hurt, and frustration to get the best of her. The girl from last year doesn't exist anymore. At the beginning of this year I decided enough was enough.  I made a lot of changes inside and out. With each pound that came off it felt as if a chain was being broken.  The girl of this year is strong, determined, and a fighter!  Even though the weight didn't come off as fast as I hoped it would, I never gave up. I still have 14 more lbs to get to my goal, but I know I will get there.  Once I reach that goal my journey doesn't end. I will begin a new chapter, one focusing on strictly living healthy physically and emotionally. 2011 has been mostly about weight loss. 2012 will be about overall health and growing in my relationship with God.  Hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas and a Happy and Healthy New Year! Can't wait to share the next phase of my journey with you!

December 12, 2010

November 24, 2011

Anniversary Trip

I am back! Last Thursday was mine and Bryan's 9th anniversary and to celebrate we headed to Destin for 6 days of relaxation! It was much needed after this last year. It was about this time last year when his work really picked up and got really busy. With him being the only one in his office at the time he was having to do everything. He rarely had a day off and would leave at 7 in the morning and most nights not get home till 10pm or after. He kept trying to reassure me it would slow down but it never did. It's a good thing he had all the work because that means his job is secure and in this economy job security is hard to come by. However I was basically a single mom to 3 kids.  I didn't complain too much in the beginning because I really thought it wouldn't last forever and things would go back to normal.  I also gained most of my weight during this time. But by the end of January of this year I broke down. All the feelings I had been holding in for months all came out at once. And I cried...a lot. Not only did I feel like a married single mom, but I also really missed my husband. When he would be home, he would be so tired he could barely help with the kids or even hold a conversation with me.  It was wearing on Bryan too. He wasn't getting much sleep and sometimes went a couple days with little to no sleep. That is dangerous when he drives a lot to get to the oil rigs. I was so relieved when they finally hired someone  in May. And it has been wonderful! He gets off at a normal time now and is off every other weekend!  We are both much happier and less stressed now that he is home more. So you can see why a vacation alone was much needed. It was great to reconnect with each other.

Anyway. I was so worried when I got home that I had gained weight while we were gone, but I managed to maintain my exact weight from the week before! I ate horribly too. I decided I was going to relax and really enjoy myself while on vacation. I never overate though so maybe that helped. However I felt yuck not eating right. I never got sick or anything, but I could tell my body was not appreciating what was being put in it. It was more of a "I just don't feel right" feeling. Eating healthy definitely is worth it. So this week I'm back to eating healthy and working out again. I have 16 lbs to go and I really hope it comes off before the holidays.  :)

That's all for now! Here are some pics from the trip...enjoy!

View from our balcony

Dinner cruise

Our last night in Destin

View from our balcony

Losing My Pride and Finding Courage

What a roller coaster of a month the past 30 days were. It all started with a garage sale. Just trying to declutter and get organized, you think it wouldn't be that bad right? Wrong. Before the garage sale was even over my eyes started bothering me and bad. They hurt, swelled up, felt like something was in them, extremely sensitive to any light, and wouldn't stop watering. But to look at them they seemed normal, so I just figured it was allergies. 4 days later after struggling just to make it through my workout I went home to find both eyes were blood red. Pink eye. So the contacts came out, got some eye drops from the doctor, and waited it out. 5 days later I felt so much better. The redness was completely gone as well as any pain. So I began to wear my contacts again. My annual visit to the eye doctor was the following week so I didn't worry too much. I should have. What was supposed to be a routine yearly eye exam turned into 3 weeks worth of visits to the eye doctor, finding out my infection was in fact not gone, but also one of the worst cases he had seen, and my vision was all over the place. Oh and apparently my nearsightness was better and astigmatism was worse!  My infection is gone now, but last week my vision was still all out of whack. Today is the first day I have been able to see as clearly as I could before all this mess happened. Hopefully when I go once again this week he will be able to measure my vision and finally get my prescription for contacts.


Anyway, all that to say that is why I haven't blogged in a while! It hurt so bad to strain my eyes to even look at the computer so blogging was not an option! I'm so glad to be back! :)


So what's been going on? Well, with my eyes going crazy and school starting I haven't worked out as much this past month. And it has been killing me!  Remember my goal of getting down to pre-wedding weight by our anniversary? Yeah well, that's not going to happen! That's actually 11 days from now and I still have 18 more lbs to go! Oh well. Can't change what happened and not about to dwell on it. :)

Anyway.  Today I thought I would post an update of my progress. Note: Some of these stats are quite humiliating but I think it's important for me to let go of my pride and embrace where I am now. 


Starting date: January 3, 2011, weight loss didn't occur till Feb though 
Height: 5'0"
Weight Loss as of August 31: 62 lbs
Inches Lost: Arms: 2  Chest: 6.5  Waist: 7.5   Hips: 9.5  Thighs: 3.5 for a Total of 29 inches lost!
Distance I could run in January: Not a single lap...lol
Distance I can run now: 3 miles
Starting size in shirts: XXL (so freaking embarrassing!) 
Size now in shirts: M
Starting size in workout pants: XL (again embarrassing)
Size in regular shorts/pants/jeans: 18 (yes you read that right)
Size now in workout pants: M 
Size in regular shorts/pants/jeans: M or size 10
Just for fun, the capris that I blogged about a while back are now too big on me! :) 
Emotional state before: Zero confidence and self-loathing
Emotional state now: Definitely have some confidence now and the pity train has long derailed! 
Weight on wedding day: 119 lbs
Starting weight this year: 200 lbs even
Weight now: 138 lbs


Goals: To lose 18 more lbs...and maybe 5-10 after that. :)  
To get back down to a size 4. Yes it CAN and WILL happen and I refuse to believe otherwise, so all the naysayers can just zip it, lol.  Lastly, to get to my goal weight and size before the holidays!
I honestly didn't think it would take me this long, but I know in the long run it will help me keep it off. 

It took a lot of courage for me to be able to post some of those stats, but I hope for those struggling with their own journey I can somehow inspire you and know it CAN happen for you. Don't give up! :)